The importance of Family

Family is everything

It’s the place where you feel safe and loved. The people that love you no matter what, they always be there for you..

I’m writing this because a lot has been happening to my family recently and it makes you think about everything.

My brother is going for an operation at the end of the month, and I guess you could say I’m a little scared. He’s my baby brother after all. The baby of the family.

It’s hit me that I can’t protect my baby brother, that I can’t make this better and I’m scared. It’s something that you don’t want to think about but it’s in the back of your mind. The what’s ifs and what will happen after?

We’re a really close family and you never think something like this could happen to you. What started out as something so small has now turned in to him having major surgery.

What do you do? When you feel so helpless? When it’s the one thing that’s playing on your mind? Who do you turn to? The answer… your family! Because they are going through this too.

I have faith that everything will be fine and I pray that it works.

If you do one thing, make sure you tell your family that you love them ❤️

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When you never feel good enough

Do you ever feel like you don’t belong? That no matter what you do it’s never good enough?

I watch my family and realise how different I am to them. They all have someone to love them and I’m sat there with no one by my side. I’ve never had someone fall in love with me, I’ve never been in love and I wonder what’s wrong with me.

I’ve never been on taken out on a first date, never been brought flowers, and I’ve never been in a relationship.

No matter how hard I try, or what I do I always end up messing things up and being out in the Friend zone.

So what’s wrong with me? Am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough?

No one knows how lonely I feel because I feel no one cares enough for me to tell. They all assume that I’m ok just inside my heart breaks.

I want kids but I know deep down inside that might never happen and that breaks my heart.

I don’t have many friends either. I just want someone to turn me to say you are good enough, you loved and it’s gonna be ok x

When do friends become strangers?

“Strangers become friends and friends become strangers”

Do you ever think about how you met your best friend? How you just pick this totally random stranger to be your friend?

Did you become friends at school, college, university or work? How did you know they would stick around and be your best friend for life?

It’s funny to think that you just click with a total stranger and you become best friends who share everything from who you shared your first kiss with to being bridesmaid at your wedding.

But what if one day the one person you were once close to becomes a total stranger to you? That you no longer know what is happening in their life and they no longer know what’s happening in yours.

I’ve gone through this recently, someone I thought was a really close friend with and could tell everything to has become a stranger. I no longer know what is happening with them and they no longer know what is happening with me. It’s like they’ve moved on from our friendship and chosen someone else. I’ve seen their friendship grow and it’s exactly how we used to be.

We would message all day, everyday and now we don’t really speak at all. It’s funny because when you put a message in the group chat that you are in, they say they miss you and want you back in their life but they make no effort to change things. They just carry on as if you now mean nothing to them when once they told you that your friendship meant everything to them.

I don’t have many friends to be honest, I have people I talk to but honestly I don’t have that one person that I can tell everything to so no one really knows what is going on in my life. Some days i miss having that one person I can tell everything to and other days I think maybe there is something wrong with me as to why people always leave me and act as if I don’t exist.

I am the type of person that cares about everyone that comes into my life. I will do anything and everything I can to make their day better but I guess they weren’t raised the same way because they never seem to notice when I need them.

It does and doesn’t bother me because I think that people come in to your life for a reason and they are just part of your story. Some are meant to stay and some are meant to be in your life for a little while whether it be a lesson or a blessing.

We were all born original so why be a copy?

It’s true what they say we all try to be like someone else. We were born original so why do we try to be like everyone else?

How many selfies do you take before you post the perfect one? How many celebrities do you look at and think I want to be like them? How many times a week do you go to the gym to try and get that perfect body?

Everyone is born beautiful and special in their own way. We all look to social media to find out what the latest styles are and how we should look but what if you don’t fit to any of those boxes? I know I don’t and sometimes I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere.

I’ve always felt like I don’t fit in, that I’m never good enough and that no one will ever fancy me. When you grow up with an older siblings that are more beautiful and outgoing than you are, people just assume that you should be more like them. “You’re nothing like your sister” “you’re so quiet compared to your sister”

It’s hurts that people can put you in the same box as someone else and expect you to be just like them instead of seeing you for the individual that you are. Sometimes I sit and wonder if I will ever be happy and enjoy life the way you’re meant to without the burden of having to look or be a certain way. Don’t get me wrong I love my life and I’m grateful for everything I’ve got and the things I’ve been through but sometimes you just want that little bit more.

So maybe it’s time I started to see the good in myself because as they say you need to love yourself before you can love anyone else. So each morning when I look in that mirror and start to doubt myself and think of all the things I see wrong, I’m going to start saying nice things to myself.

So remember that you are beautiful, and you are special and you are loved ❤️